friday, 12

friday, 12

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.yesterday's events: skateboard 

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.dream: in a large classroom like room, sitting at a table, i've assumed the body and 

persona of my former filipino teacher from college (j.d), working on some kind of 

project, seems to be a kind of coloring book project, smokey, foggy, my mind 

cannot comprehend the coloring book project, 

end dream, 5:37 am 

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.a - large room                         b - me 

c - table                                    d - coloring book project that my mind cannot comprehend 

e - door                                    f - hallway 

g - window 

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.image below: coloring book project that my mind cannot comprehend detail 

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.dream: just woke up, in a bed outside a barracks building, two guys (w.d) and (s.t) are in 

boxes on my left, see a dog up ahead, call out to dog, dog comes over to me, pet dog, 

look down, now there are two dogs, 

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.big screen up ahead, a movie is playing, seems to be 'the goonies', 

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.two people are each playing large arcade games, a guy below and a lady above, the guy and 

lady seem to be competing against each other in a kind of laser fight game, red and 

white lasers, hard to say which is below and above, arcade video game laser fight 

continues, eventually the lady on the upper arcade machine defeats the guy on 

the lower arcade machine, end scene, 

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.a guy is strapped to the inside of a large metal orb, he has a kind of fishing wire coming 

out the back of his head, there's also a lady in this orb, lady is strapped to the side of 

the orb opposite the guy, neither the guy nor lady have freedom of movement, they're 

strapped to the inside wall of the orb, 

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.when the guy thinks a certain way, energy gets sent from the wire in the back of his head 

to the lady, the lady needs some more energy, on the lady's right there are large 

droplets of moisture encroaching on her, the moisture is large droplets of liquid mercury, 

the lady looks over at the large droplets of liquid mercury encroaching on her strapped 

to the inside wall of the metal orb and screams, end scene, 

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.possibly on a ship, peeing in what i think is a toilet, upon closer inspection, this is not a 

toilet, just a toilet seat over a white carpet, i'm peeing and my urine is just going down onto 

the white carpet through the toilet seat, some kid comes up behind me, end scene, 

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.in a guy's house (k.r), i'm staying as a guest here, fly down the hall and around a couch, go 

into other room, two kids are riding skateboards on the floor, i slide up the floor, a 

young girl jumps off a skateboard ramp, i stop on floor, look up the stairs to the bedroom, 

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.in the bedroom, on a bed, about to go to sleep, kids in the bedroom all around me, the 

home owner guy comes into the room, asks me if i need anything before i go to bed, 

like a bandaid, i say no, i'm fine, 

end dream, 7:30 am 

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.a - barracks building                                     b - guy in a box (w.d) 

c - guy in a box (s.t)                                       d - me in bed 

e - two dogs                                                    f - movie 'the goonies' 

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g - lady at laser arcade game, winner            

h - guy at laser arcade game, loser                 i - inside a metal orb 

j - guy with wire coming out of his head 

k - lady with moisture encroaching on her 

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l - me peeing                                                   m - some kid 

n - guy's house (k.r)                                        o - couch 

p - i fly around couch then slide up floor 

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q - guys on skateboards                                  r - girl on skateboard or scooter jump 

s - stairs up                                                      t - me in bed surrounded by kids 

u - guy asks me if i need anything, bandaid 

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.image below: waking up outside a barracks building and arcade video game scene detail 

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.image below: red and white laser arcade video game scene detail 

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.image below: metal orb scene detail 

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.image below: liquid mercury moisture encroaching on lady strapped to inside of orb detail 

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.image below: staying as a guest in guy's home (k.r) scene detail 

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.park workout 

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.corner store (groceries) 

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thursday, 11

thursday, 11

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.yesterday's events: fruit juice 

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.dream: in a large cafeteria like room, interacting with a guy, there may be a racial component 

to the interaction, i leave room, end scene, 

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.walking forwards in a moving train car, end scene, 

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.enter into a dark room, my last year of grad school is coming up and i need to register for 

classes, corner, right turn, a lady comes from around the corner, she recognizes me, 

tells me i need to see some other lady at the next corner, i move along,

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.next corner, right turn, three women, the lady behind on the left is the lady i need to 

see, she doesn't recognize me, i move along, 

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.projector screen on the wall, power point presentation, has to do with the classes for 

the last year of grad school, the writing is in a dark yellow color, first semester classes, 

research project, lecture on tribal weapons, 'xiaban' or 'жiaban' which is the word i just 

learned in persian meaning 'street', 

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.second semester classes, much more relaxed, focus on poetry, image of a dog on a 

round table under a green sheet, the dog is or will be dying soon and the family 

is dealing with grief and the burial process, 

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.grad school teacher (s.m) has written a 

poem, in the past most poems were written by white men, on the board is says 

'white boy' but this has been crossed out and 'woman here' was written, 

s.m is a woman and writes poetry, i begin to laugh, s.m is clever and smart, 

end dream, 4:10 am 

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.a - me and guy in large cafeteria-like room 

b - walking forwards on moving train car 

c - in a dark room                                    d - lady who recognizes me 

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e - second right corner                             f - three women 

g - lady who i'm supposed to talk to who doesn't recognize me 

h - power point presentation 

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.image below: corner, right turn, lady who recognizes me detail 

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.image below: dog on round table under green sheet detail 

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.park workout (milk)

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wednesday, 10

wednesday, 10

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.yesterday's events: metal detector guy in the park 

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.dream: enter into a dark bar in germany, bar on my right, the end of a board is on 

my left, on the end of the board are three grey round tables, grey round tables 

have a smokey appearance, some kind of construction process is going on with 

these round tables on the end of the board but my mind cannot comprehend the 

building process, 

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.i start to type in german on a computer, even though i feel like the font is 

ultra small, the letters appear normal size, computer screen 

is a dark yellow color, letters have a red-orange color, what i want to type is 

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.'wenn material bau die sache ist ...' (when it comes to building material ...) 

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.but all i can type is 'wenn material.m ...', 

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.i have a hard time typing in german and i'm not sure what i want to say for the second 

clause because i didn't really understand what was going on with the tables on the board, 

so i give up trying to type, 

end dream, 4:10 am 

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.a - bar                                 b - i enter bar 

c - end of a board                d - three round tables on end of board, smokey 

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e - some kind of construction process going on with tables on board 

f - i start to type in german on odd computer 

g - hard time typing in german, don't really know what i want to say, give up 

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.image below: trying to type in german on a strange computer, true color approximation, detail 

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.dream: i was just outside flying around and now i've entered into a kind of shared trailer home, 

roommate's stuff on left, two small shelves in front of me, i stack them both up to make each 

of the shelves higher, go over to right, friend's sister (a.s) by a wall, behind the wall is friend's 

other sister (l.s) sitting on a couch, 

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.<<begin sexual content warning>>

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.i go up to l.s., plan on having sex with her, she is very small, just a few inches high, 

she pleads 'no', 'no, don't' she says, i ignore her pleas and and penetrate her anyways, 

the instant the very very tip of my penis enters her vagina, her entire body disappears and 

she's completely gone from the chair, i ejaculate prematurely all over the chair, 

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.paper napkin, clean up all the cum, go into bathroom, throw cum covered paper napkin in 

small trash can by sink, leave bathroom, 

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.outside the bathroom, some lady goes over near the chair where l.s was and asks about her, 

i go over to my bedroom area, i plan on going outside and flying around a bit more, need 

to change clothes, pick up my black pants, the lower left leg has a big rip in it, inside 

part of lower left pant leg, underneath these ripped black pants are blue sweat pants, 

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.there's another pair of black pants on dresser on the right, i'm going through all 

my IDs and money cards and keys, thinking about what i need to take with me when 

i go back outside, 

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.friend (n.s) is playing a video game on a big tv, his brother (a.s) is watching the video game, 

the character that n.s is playing on the video game is his brother (a.s), a.s is watching as 

n.s plays his character and says that his character must be getting low on energy, a.s 

considers eating a crab leg, i continue going through my IDs and keys and money cards, 

end dream, 6:00 am 

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b, c - two small shelves that i make taller 

d - friend's sister (a.s)                                 e - friend's sister (l.s) on chair 

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f - trash can in bathroom                            g - lady comes over asking about l.s 

h - ripped black pants, blue sweats underneath 

i - other black pants on dresser                   j - friend (n.s) playing video game 

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k - friend's brother (a.s)                              l - video game on tv 

m - me getting ready to go back outside to fly around 

n - my IDs and keys and money cards 

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.image below: increasing the height of two small shelves detail 

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.image below: friend (n.s) playing video game and his brother (a.s) watching detail 

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.note: the character on the video game is a.s, end note 

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.fruit juice 

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tuesday, 09

tuesday, 09

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.yesterday's events: groceries 

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.dream: walking backwards in a kitchen away from the sink, a spider is floating towards me, 

the spider seems to have a strand of web silk attached to me, i wrap my finger around the 

spider silk on me and attach it to a counter on my right, now the spider can build its 

web, 

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.spider is building its web over the sink, a little bug is caught in web, spider eats it and 

gets bigger, now the spider is big and green, yellow highlights, and in the web over the 

sink, i feel the need to kill this spider, approach spider, spider is now a blue 

walkie-talkie telephone, blue walkie-talkie telephone then turns into dishes above the sink, 

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.a young lady comes over and hands me a four pack of toilet paper, lower right role is 

missing, this is 'dora the explorer' toilet paper, i may be able to have sex with this lady, 

take toilet paper into room, ask lady to take her clothes off, no one in room but me and 

toilet paper, some kind of sex trick, i leave room, look into other room, two people resting, 

end scene, 

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.outside, steep hill-cliff in front of me, water below, i fly down and land by water's edge, 

look behind me up cliff, a huge wave of rocks and dirt is coming down towards me, 

i fly up and out over the water, my body starts to spin and turn uncontrollably, 

i've lost all sense of direction and orientation, spinning around and around, can't 

tell up from down, 

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.then i'm able to make out the ground below, i land down in a strange area that is 

kind of behind and under the water, endless wall of water on my right, i'm holding an 

empty pie tin with an orange ping-pong ball in it, i put my right hand 

into the water wall, put a bit of the pie tin in as well, now the orange ping pong ball

is gone, there's now a little silver coin and some cheddar cheese in the pie tin, end scene, 

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.in a room back in the building on the cliff, sitting on a kind of medical exam table, 

jimmy dean enters the room, takes out four individually wrapped sausage patties 

from a mini fridge by the wall, some other people enter the room, 

nothing going on, i'm just sitting there and the people and jimmy dean are just standing 

around, i can feel my dream ending, only have a limited amount of time here and 

i need to move, 

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.i plan on going back down into the strange under-behind water area but this time 

with some identification, go over to my IDs, passport, money cards, grocery cards, 

i pick up my social security card and my military ID and leave room, about to 

leave building, some guy is sitting in a room just before the exit, i look at him and 

exit the building, 

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.back on the steep hill cliff, i go down only half way this time and turn around and 

look back up the hill-cliff, some large boulders come rolling down, i move out of the way, 

then some massive boulders, just under the building on top of the cliff, come loose 

and roll down in a water fall area under the building, now the entire 

building above is unstable and begins to shake and rumble and fall down, 

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.this building on top of the cliff is going to collapse, it's a government science 

research building and it won't be upright much longer, but it's not all bad news, 

once this building collapses, more focus and attention can be paid to a different 

government science research building on omaha lake that is still under construction, 

i go back up the hill-cliff, 

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.on top of the cliff, a lady is standing on some stairs going up and playing a guitar and 

singing, twin ladies are in a round concrete area in front of me, each of the twins has a 

single bag of personal belongings, 

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.i walk across the round concrete area where the two twin ladies are and signal to all three 

women to come with me, the lady with the guitar on the stairs wants to go down 

the light hallway on the left but i say that my area is down the darker highway on the 

right, 

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.i enter into the dark square tunnel area on right, i'm holding a kind of square seat 

cushion, throw it in a corner in case there is an ambush waiting for me, no ambush, 

this is a dead end tunnel, i turn around, one of the twin ladies is watching me and 

says that i now look like a walrus, apparently my physical appearance has changed, 

'i still feel the same' i say, 

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.i lie down on my right side facing the one twin lady, the guitar lady is farther behind, 

i wiggle my hips, 'it's long and pretty' the twin lady says to the guitar lady, 

imagery of frogs, insects and spiders, 

end dream, 9:50 am 

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.a - me in kitchen                             b - attach spider wed strand to counter 

c - green spider above sink              d - blue walkie talkie telephone 

e - dishes                                          f - 'dora the explorer' toiler paper 

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g - side room, only me                     h - two people in other side room 

i - steep hill-cliff                              j - i fly down and land by water's edge 

k - huge wave of rocks and dirt coming down at me 

l - fly up over water, disorientation 

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m - manage to land in strange behind water area, pie tin 

n - in building, medical exam bed 

o - jimmy dean and other people 

p - mini-fridge                                     q - my IDs 

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r - guy in room just before exit            s - half way down hill-cliff 

t - huge rocks come undone                 u - government science building collapsing 

v - i go back up hill                              w - guitar lady on stairs going nowhere 

x - twin ladies                                       y - light hallway 

z - me lying down in dark hallway 

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.park workout, liquid refill 

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