thursday, 20

thursday, 20

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.yesterday's events: convenience store no, convenience store yes, groceries, cook eggs 

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.dream: deep inside the production office of a university newspaper, a guy says something 

about a house and touching, another guy has two rooms, this guy lies back and resembles 

the dad on the nineteen eighties sitcom show 'family ties', bald head, facial hair, 

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.in the back right, there's a trial going on, behind the two defendants are four guys 

impersonating football players, the pretend football player on the far right has on a 

type of vest with red balloons on it, 

end dream, 4:10 am 

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.a - university newspaper office 

b - guy mentions house                                 c - guy with two rooms 

d - mock trail                                                 e - two defendants 

f - pretend football players                            g - guy with red balloon vest 

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.dream: outside a school, under some stairs, lady in front of me, she says that someone 

came into her room and kissed her, says she better show me her butt, lady pulls her 

pants down, end scene, 

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.in my old home town, going up to alternate forested road to old house, car drives up 

road i want to go on, road has been modified, more modern now, i start to walk 

up road, glass is now in front of me and on sides, some guy's window, i go around 

glass enclosure and start to walk up road, end scene, 

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.in an airport lounge in a foreign country, sitting in a chair, lady on my right, her son 

is up on the left, me and lady and her son just arrived in this foreign country, we 

were all on the same flight, her son, adult son, is complaining that he doesn't want to 

be in a foreign country, touch, 

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.i notice three scientists at a table on the left, middle scientist throws me something, i catch 

it, metal loop something, i throw it back to him, scientist throws the metal band way 

over to the right wall of room, almost catches a fly, 

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.i get up, go over to wall, not a metal loop anymore but a little metal container with a lid and 

holes around the sides, a fly is flying around in front of me, the scientist is trying to 

catch the fly, i step in, 'let me do it, i was born here' i say, 

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.i manage to catch the fly in the metal container, lie down on the floor, put the metal 

container on the back right of my head, i can feel the fly on my head, 

end scene, 

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.in house from elementary school, there are two days left of high school, guy (t.h) enters 

my room, tells me to take a shower and get ready for school, i go to closet, there's a 

shower head in the closet, i turn it on, water spraying everywhere, toys and comics 

on shelves are getting wet, i turn off water, not gonna shower here, not a shower anyways, 

it's a closet with all my toys and comics that just happens to have a shower head as well, 

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.leave my room, go into mother's bathroom, t.h tells me to bring a peach and a skateboard to 

school, get into shower, turn on water, looking for shampoo, no shampoo, 

mother's soaps and lotions, i pick up a bottle, 'womens body wash pH five point nine' 

it says, well, i'll just use this stuff, rub womens body wash all over my body, 

rinse, shower taking long time, finish shower, turn off water, step out of shower, 

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.look in mirror, my left nipple is missing, hole in my chest that leads to a large cavity in 

left side of chest, i put my right index finger into left chest cavity, pull out an old scab, 

flick scab into sink, 

end dream, 9:20 am 

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.a - me 

b - lady who pulls down her pants                         c - old home town road 

d - glass enclosure                  

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e - me and lady in waiting area of international airport 

f - lady's adult son, complaining                            g- scientists 

h - fly by wall                                                         i - i catch fly 

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j - house from elementary school                           k - path of guy (t.h) 

l - shower head in closet                                         m - comic books getting wet 

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n - mother's bathroom                                             o - shower 

p - womens body wash                                            q - soaps and lotions 

r - mirror 

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.image below: glass enclosure and road in old home town detail 

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.image below: little metal container and lid used to catch fly detail 

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.image below: womens body wash with five point nine pH detail 

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.wake up

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.early park workout due to incoming rain 

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.corner store 

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wednesday, 19

wednesday, 19

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.yesterday's events: corner store low, corner store high 

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.dream: a ferry boat has just dropped me off, running on a dark street in old home town, 

i've been running for a long time in bare feet, my calves are gonna cramp up soon, 

up a small hill, stop sign, i grab onto the stop sign pole, rest for a bit, 

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.the road on the right is closed off, the fire marshal is sitting in his red truck, a cop 

is standing in the middle of the closed off street, i carry on, looking for 

aunt and mother, small down hill, up ahead are some people eating at a table, 

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.i approach the table, it's friend (g.h) and his family eating, i come up to the bench and 

kneel down, spaghetti and salad on table, they offer me some food, i start to eat, 

spaghetti sauce dripping down my face, 'this might get messy' i say, white 

napkins on the right, i look down, i'm wearing an orange life vest, continue eating, 

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.the food is all carbs but it should give me the energy i need to prevent my calves from 

cramping up and to run back, 

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.people at table are friend (g.h), his mother and father (d.h, d.h), friend of a friend (n.d), 

and a dog, friend's mom asks me if i want to sit on the bench since i'm kneeling in front of 

it, i say no because of my back, dog on my left, 

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.g.h says that he and n.d were on a boat in the water and that n.d did some diving and 

that the boat captain pointed out some kind of unique clam, 

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.friend's mother addresses her husband, says he was eating lemons on the ferry boat 

during halloween and that she doesn't approve, i think the only way she would have 

know this is if she were digging through the ferry boat trash, it seems like 

people at the table are thinking that it's absurd that d.h would be upset that her 

husband was eating lemons during halloween on the ferry boat, 

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.i grab the bridge of my nose and say 'look, lemons', friend's mother laughs, 

end dream, 3:55 am 

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.a - ferry boat drops me off                                 b - running on dark road of old home town 

c - stop sign                                                         d - side road closed off 

e - fire marshal in his parked truck                      f - cop standing in middle of closed road 

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g - table with spaghetti                                         h - me kneeling with life vest on 

i - wooden bench                                                  j - dog 

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k - friend's mother (d.h)                                        l - friend (g.h) 

m - friend of a friend (n.d)                                    n - friend's dad (d.h) 

o - water where g.h and n.d were in a boat 

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.image below: spaghetti, orange life vest and white napkins detail 

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.dream: just outside of a large russian mansion, slavic lady and her daughter, some lady 

in a high window says that there is 'охлатая рыба' (akxataya riba) inside the mansion, 

this apparently means cold or leftover fish, all one has to do to get the fish is climb 

up to the window and enter the mansion, 

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.i'd like some охлатая рыба so i go over to the window and start to climb up some scaffolding, 

i would easily be able to get up to the window but there are a bunch of other people 

in the scaffolding as well so i have to kind of contort my body in a funny position and then

make it up into this lower red colored scaffolding, all the people are moving over to 

the left so that's the direction i go in, it seems they'll make a loop and then enter the window, 

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.go over into some higher brown colored scaffolding, look down, some 

people are below looking up at me and the other people, a guy (f.l) is in front of me in 

line and has assumed the form of a large centaur, me and the centaur are holding 

onto some scaffolding and stretching our spines, 

.

it takes the centaur much longer 

to stretch out his spine because it is much longer and complex, but once he gets 

fully stretched out, he's much stronger and more agile, music is playing, 

end dream, 6:40 am 

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.a - me just outside of a large russian mansion                             

b - high window of mansion                                 c - lady in window offering cold fish inside 

d - охлатая [охлатная] рыба (cold left over fish) inside mansion 

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e - slavic lady and her daughter                            f - i climb up into lower red scaffolding 

g - other people push me along in the line 

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h - centaur guys stretching his spine in higher brown scaffolding 

i - people below looking up 

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.image below: red and brown scaffolding detail 

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.image below: centaur stretching his spine in rafters detail 

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.music link (cold fish tune): 

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.park workout 

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.convenience store no, convenience store yes, groceries, cook eggs 

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tuesday, 18

tuesday, 18

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.yesterday's events: cook noodles 

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.dream:

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.dream:

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.dream: in a gym in a community college, a lady wearing all black is working out on a jungle 

gym, i'm lying on the ground, lady lies on top of me, we start to go to sleep, lady has 

a boyfriend, he's on his way into the gym, some other women in room say that from 

two to five am, a lot of people will come into this room, 

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.lady's boyfriend enters room, his name is bruce, he's not too happy that me and lady are 

lying together on floor, i tell him that we were just sleeping, he says no sleeping, i say 

ok, i look around, white boards in room, green ink on boards, seems to be 

abbreviations for people's names, on the first board, about three or four lines down, 

i see a DD SS, this is the abbreviation for my name, 

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.several other white boards on the right, my letters, DD SS, are in the first spot on all 

the other boards, 

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.in a different office space with two fitness ladies, their explaining my class schedule to me, 

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.in a classroom, in a bed, guy lying next to me, guy has some pens, guy gets up and 

starts to write numbers all over the walls, i feel like he's writing the dimensions of the 

walls down but they could just be random numbers, guy gets back into bed, tells me 

not to say anything about the numbers he wrote, i say they look like construction 

numbers, i put pens off to the left, 

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.teacher enters room, hands me some papers, guy wants some too, teacher goes over to 

guy and hands him some papers, as well, 

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.some other guy with a severe learning disability is in the room as well, 

'a real dependent' someone says, now this guy is lying next to me in bed, he's holding 

a giant grey patio umbrella and it's poking me in the face, i throw the patio umbrella on 

the floor, now the guy starts to hold onto me like he was holding the patio umbrella, 

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.walking in the hallway, pass a lady, left turn, another left turn, walking back towards 

the office area, lady in front of me, cardio exercise equipment in room on left, 

swimming pool, may be empty, enter into office area, 

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.i'd like to get a printout of my classes, i'm invited back to a desk, some guy starts 

to talk to me, asks me if i've ever been to prison, i say no but i've been to 

a bunch of mental institutions, i ask guy if he's been to prison, guy says that everyone 

in his family has been to prison, guy is very confrontational and i'm not enjoying the 

conversation, 

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.a manager boss guy comes over and gives me a printout, i leave area, 

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.outside, about to leave the community college campus, standing by the main road, i look up, 

two crescent moons, i try and adjust my hands to match the orientation of the moons, 

then the far moon turns into a large jelly fish and floats away, leaving a trail of bubbles, 

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.i pull my hat down low on my head, strong emotion, i look behind me, a bunch of cars are 

ready to drive off but they seem to be waiting for me, i turn right and cross college road, 

look bag, trail of garbage, empty cigarette box, some plastic wrappers, i carry on, 

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.walking by a guard rail, several empty postal packages, it seems like someone is 

trying to make a statement, if the postal service is going to be delivering 

packages here, they should probably set up either a trash can or a recycling bin, 

a lady passes by, i tell her it sounds like a class project to set up a trash can, lady 

isn't a teacher, i carry on, 

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.time to go back the way i came, i almost go onto the main road on the left which is 

running parallel to the direction i'm traveling in but if i were to get on the main road, 

i'd likely get lost, i didn't come in that way, i came in from the back 

loading dock area, so that's where i head off to, 

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.tippy toe running in bare feet on rough concrete of road of loading dock area, i have a 

kind of back brace on and khaki pants rolled up at ankles,  up ahead is the main loading 

dock and several outdoor workmen, background music starts to play, 

end dream, 7:15 am 

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.a - me and lady in community college gym

b - jungle gym                                         c - lady's boyfriend (bruce) 

d - women                                                e - white boards 

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f - fitness women explaining my class schedule 

g - in bed in class                                      h - guy writes on wall 

i - teacher                                                   j - patio umbrella 

k - me in hall                                             l - lady 

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m - cardio equipment room                      n - swimming pool 

o - short lady                                             p - me in office 

q - confrontational guy                              r - boss guy hands me printout 

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s - me outside                                            t - jelly fish moon 

u - cars waiting to leave                            v - empty postal boxes 

w - lady, not a teacher                                x - main road 

y - loading dock                                         z - outdoor worker guys 

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.image below: classroom scene detail 

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.a - me in bed                                          b - guy writes on walls 

c - i put pens by little fridge                   d - teacher enters 

e - teacher hands me papers                    f - teacher hands other guy papers (guy who wrote on walls)

g - guy with umbrella                              h - i throw large patio umbrella on floor 

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.note: at first, guy next to me in bed was guy who wrote on walls, then it 

was guy with umbrella, one spot on bed, two different guys, end note 

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.image below: large grey patio umbrella detail 

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.image below: office area and confrontational guy talking about prison detail 

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.image below: jelly fish moon and trail of bubbles detail 

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.musical note: at the end of the first or second dream, i had these lyrics in my head

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.'wasted away again in margarita-ville, searching for my lost shaker of salt ... '

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.also, 

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.for the background music of the loading dock scene of final dream, the first part of 

the tune seemed unique and new but the second part seemed like part of a song i heard on the 

radio so i didn't hum and upload it, now i kind of wish i did but melody is forgotten, end note 

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.wake up

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.return to cereal and oats 

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.park workout 

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.corner store low, corner store high 

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monday, 17

monday, 17

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.yesterday's events: groceries, heavy rain, convenience store 

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.dream: me and a kid in a room, couch in a corner, the back of the couch is facing the middle 

of the room, seated side of couch is facing corner, me and kid by back of couch, kid 

reaches over couch and pulls out three maps of the usa, one map says 'seattle', another 

map says 'black railroad' from eighteen sixty eight or nine, and for the other map, i can't 

tell the title because the kid has it open, kid thinks the maps are for kidnapping people, 

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.looking at the open map of the usa, start in washington state, take a trip, i suggest going 

down to oregon, kid doesn't want to go to oregon, i recommend taking one of the 

many path options to the south east which lead to the middle of the country, 

many of these paths converge in an area labeled 'skgt' seems to be for skagit, 

end dream, 3:50 am 

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.a - corner of room                                 b - back of couch 

c - me                                                     d - kid 

e - three usa maps                                  f - usa map that kid has open 

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g - washington state                               h - many paths going to middle of country 

i - 'skgt' (skagit) pass 

j - date on black railroad map 

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.dream: up in the sky, high up, two predator cats in a harness hanging from a rope, one 

predator cat white, one predator cat brown, i'm also hanging from a rope, rope 

goes way up, there's a point in the rapid upward travel when i become aware of 

the mountainous horizon and quit focusing on the ground below, then i go back 

down on the rope, way down, just above a sewer grate on the ground, go back up on the rope, 

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.now i'm swinging on the rope, swinging to the left, get real close to a white wall, 

land on a ledge, large spider web on ledge, i use both my hands and make the web bigger, 

some guy says 'watch this' as i expand the spider web, web gets a bit bigger but 

it's very dense and well constructed so i can't expand it that much, i blow a drop of 

water on the left side of the web for the spider inside to drink, move around to the left, 

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.still on the high ledge, look down, lady (s.m) and some kid approach ledge from below, 

i'm holding something and throw it down below, some piece from the spider web, lands 

on the kid's head, kid and s.m walk away, i jump down from ledge, 

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.i go sit in an office space, s.m approaches, she's my grad school teacher, i tell her 

we've got way too much work to do, if she doesn't reduce the work load, people 

are gonna stop sleeping and get really stressed out, 

end dream

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.a - two predator cats in harness hanging from rope high up in sky 

b - me on rope                                             c - sky 

d - white wall                                              e - spider web on ledge 

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f - lady (s.m) and kid below                        g - i drop something on kid's head 

h - me talking to s.m in office area 

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.image below: me on rope in sky detail 

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.in bed, not sleeping, fall back asleep, ~10:00 am 

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.dream:

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.wake up

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.park workout, heavy rain, milk 

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.cook noodles 

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