thursday, 23

thursday, 23

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.just got back from mental health hospital (inpatient) - not really manic anymore, 

spring time, energy, ... 

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.dream update:

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.last dream in apartment before going to hospital: 

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........i go to a bar with a guy (a.n), i don't really want to go and tell the guy it's not a good idea, 

we go anyways, guy gets all excited with all the people and action, guy gets up on a high platform, 

i go around to low right side on the main floor, guy is all excited, the people at the bar want the 

guy to jump down from the high platform and slide down a pole, 

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.<begin graphic content advisory>

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.this is a dick cutting pole, if the guy slides down it, it will cut his dick off but he really has 

no other options since he already got up on the high platform, his only way down seems 

to be the dick cutting pole, 

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.a large guy and two smaller guys come around in front of me on the main floor and in front 

of the dick cutting pole, they are encouraging a.n to jump down to them (and get his 

dick cut off in the process), a.n looks at the three guys with excited drunken eyes and 

says something like 'you want it ... you want it ...', a.n is the star of the show and he's 

loving every minute of it, 

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.end dream, unknown time, date: probably the seventeenth or eighteenth of march 2023

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.a - guy (a.n) on high platform                           b - people in club 

c - dick pole                                                       d - me off to the side 

e - three guys to catch a.n after he slides down dick pole 

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.hospital dreams: photographs are of my notes from stay in mental hospital

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.dreams:

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.22 mar 2023: dream: with friend (n.s) and his brother (a.s), over used hand candy, clumpy, 

no good, 

end dream

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.dream: female soccer field, post, right hand, hair, end dream

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.dream: bridge over water, friend (k.r) spotted a lobster here in the water by the 

bridge last summer, k.r gets out of his truck and picks the lobster out of the water, 

big red and orange lobster, long crustacean limbs and antenna, end scene, 

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.housing area, snow on ground, two people ice skating, i'm a bit lower, old folds house up 

ahead, snow has been shoveled here, end scene, 

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.hill type structure, guy (s.t), end scene, 

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.in a restaurant, friend (j.f) on a table, j.f is horny, some guy is feeding off of j.f's horny-ness,

end dream, 5:15 am 

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.dream: i'm by or in a building, could be a swimming pool here, large guy with beard comes 

up to me, adjusts the SIM card in my cell phone, says something about 'not slit throat', 

i show him scar on my right wrist from an alien abduction, ten hours something, guy 

leaves, i put SIM card back down snug in my phone, electronic circuit imagery on 

cell phone screen, end scene, 

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.four pegs on left, each peg is a normal alien, one large rubber sheet is connected to each alien 

peg person, opposite the four standard alien peg people are four super charged alien people, 

the rubber sheet is not connected to the super alien people, i need to stretch the rubber 

sheet over to the right and connect it to the super alien pegs, 

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.i stretch the rubber sheet over to the right, one alien peg on left gets grumpy, then he sees 

that i'm connecting the rubber sheet to a super alien peg guy, normal alien gets a bit 

jealous and then impressed, i connect the rubber sheet to the super alien peg on right, second 

one down from the top, only three more to go, 

end dream, 

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.image below: normal alien peg people, super-charged alien peg people and rubber sheet detail  

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.image below: second from top, super-charged alien peg person who i connected the 

rubber sheet to detail 

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.23 mar 2023: dream: don't remember, super cock something, 

end dream, 11:47 am 

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.dream: walking, soccer field above me, super cock ghost towel on soccer field, 

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.note: a lot of people died to make that super cock ghost towel, end note 

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end dream, 2:45 am

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.dream: in a bathroom, shaving my face, an arab guy is on my left, he shaves his beard off, 

he's been waiting to shave off his beard for a really long time, i wipe up hairs from the 

sink and counter, wiping off window sills on my right, some lady has her foot on the window 

sill, blue suede type shoe, i wipe around her shoe, i leave bathroom, 

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.a janitor guy in hall has taken the brown paper bag i was using as a trash can, i take back the 

brown paper bag and put it back in the bathroom, 

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.leave bathroom and hall area, lady's voice, she's saying something about at risk teens, 

at risks teens may have a mentor and a migrant group, and apparently that leads 

to napoleon-ic legislature, 

end dream, 4:10 am 

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.full page of dream notes:

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.wake up - discharge from hospital - return to apartment 

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.play harmonica, skateboard 

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