thursday, 06

thursday, 06

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.today's events: rollerskate 

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.manic episode has ended, apartment slowly being cleaned and uncluttered, dreams 

will slowly build back up until next manic episode, likely around the fall equinox, 

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.dream: 

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.rough notebook notes 

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.rough notebook sketch 

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.brief description: enter classroom, biology teacher in room, my skateboard goes under table, 

write down homework problems and open book, end dream 

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.a - classroom                             b - door 

c - table                                       d - male biology teacher 

e - me                                          f - my skateboard goes under table and hits wall 

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g - homework problems on wall 

h - i write down numbers of problems 

i - book with homework problems 

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j - data from star trek on exercise bike 

k - problem one                         l - other problems 

m - page number 

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.semi-conscious imagery: underling on workout bars 

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.dream associated with above described semi-conscious imagery: 

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description: in k.r's house, walking around by myself, no one there, k.r comes home, 

walks over to me in kitchen, i go upstairs where my bedroom is, some kid is 

on upper floor as well, end dream 

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.a - k.r's house                         b - ground floor 

c - upper floor                          d - me in kitchen area

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e - k.r comes home                   f - i go up stairs 

g - bedroom i was staying in 

h - some kid 

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.nap dream:

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.                https://dddurb5r.wordpress.com/2023/07/06/dream-06-jul-2023/

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.today's events: 

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.back leg bicycle rider 

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.skateboard 

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wednesday, 05

wednesday, 05

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.today's events: run outside (hospital double, short track) 

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.dreams: two forgotten, one remembered, one nap dream, 

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.first forgotten dream notes: 

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.no idea, completely and totally forgotten, did not draw the dream map, no good, ... 

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.second forgotten dream notes: no clue, should have sketched dream map, ... 

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.note: dear self, draw the map, end note, 

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.dream: 

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.a - large empty house

b - me walking around, no one around 

c - my meandering path through large empty house, everyone has left 

d - main door to house 

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e - semi-conscious imagery associated with dream, outside at driveway entrance of house 

f - gate arm 

g - my perspective 

h - lady in car stops at gate arm

i - other lady in car drives under gate arm 

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.forgotten dream scene from today: wearing dark grey jeans, phone ringing, seems to be mine, 

end scene

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.nap dream: 

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.                refer to wordpress dddurb5r 

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.forgotten dream scene from yesterday: box cutter with black handle, end scene 

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.more events from today: nuclear noodle mold to the radioactive discharge growth patch 

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tuesday, 04

tuesday, 04

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.mania dissipating, dreams have returned, focusing on cleaning up apartment, 

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.dreams: notebook image sketches 

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.one: hacked dream

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.note: the lady who wants to kill me hacked into my dreams, same lady i saw in the gas station 

candy aisle, she also did a porno with big rubber tits and a huge rubber dick, possibly from 

australia, end note 

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.also note: her hacking entry point into my dream is the long wave radio on the 

cranes across the harbor, interpreted by me as wesley crusher's red eyes, end note, 

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.additionally: human dream wave patterns occur at very long and low frequencies, same 

as the long wave red crane waves across the harbor, 

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.images below: 

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.a - red pupiled eyes of wesley crusher from star trek 

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b - short lady 

c - me 

d - short lady goes into her drawer, not enough room for me

e - other options closed off

f - me sitting on some guy's lap

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g - i'm told to leave my apartment 

h - noises outside my door 

i - i get up from sleeping mat, kneel by door

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j - george w. bush on a grassy hill, face down with his buttocks exposed 

k - i pass by GWB and go up hill 

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.two: semi-conscious imagery associated with above described dream:

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.spirit in the building, tall person, long curly black hair, vacuum, not a happy spirit, someone 

who used to work in the building and vacuum all the floors 

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.dream two: alien brother 

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.a - last scene of dream, going back to meet brother, where my dream experience begins

b - beginning of dream, me and brother and other people arrive at beach

c - water 

d - concrete building 

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e - i have to leave to do something, leave everyone behind, alone mission 

f, g, h - alone mission is a hoax, fake, no mission at all, just me in empty space

i - i go back to beach to get brother

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j - brother standing all by himself under concrete structure, teal green shirt

k - i touch brother's chest and back, he is overwhelmed with emotion to see me, 

collapses from exhaustion and joy 

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.note: other people on beach turn into seagulls when i return to meet brother, end note 

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.nap dream:

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.                https://dddurb5r.wordpress.com/2023/07/04/dream-04-jul-2023/

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.today's events: park, walk 

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monday, 03

monday, 03

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.today's events: body weight squats, finance  

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.dream: in a classroom, comic books on front desk, students, joe biden enters room, starts to address 

class, sees front table, comes over, i get up and move to back of class, joe biden says something 

like 'this old pro (guy) sits here from time to time', i nod my head, end dream 

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.image below: dream word notes, rough draft 

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.image below: three image set, presidential classroom dream

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.a - university style classroom 

b - me at front desk (table) 

c - some of my comic books on table 

da - students from other family 

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db - students from my family 

dc - usa president joe biden 

e - 'dc' comes over to table 

f - i move to back of class 

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.image below: presidential classroom dream, alternate perspective 

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.today's events (continued): bus ride, finance 

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sunday, 02

sunday, 02

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.today: carrots, tonic water

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.a - capitol hill, seattle 

b - art supply store

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.also today: protein shakes at the cardboard recycling bin 

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saturday, 01

saturday, 01

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.today'S events: eat rocks

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.stair climb workout 

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.returning to standard thought and behaviour processes, manic episode ending, 

couple more days, 

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.thinking about the future, won't be in current location for more than a few more 

years, earliest move out year, 2026, 

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.latest move out year, 2028, 

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.next location of residence TBD (to be determined ...) 

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.refer to images below, 

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.rest on beach 

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.ramen noodles of a crustacean variety, pink flowers near the inn 

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.burger king note on the sidewalk 

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friday, 30

friday, 30

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.recovering from manic episode, sun has past the summer solstice and is returning to 

darkening skies, 

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.images from notebook, 

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.sometimes i'd rather hear something i don't like than hear nothing at all 

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.all is well, sometimes i feel sad and lonely 

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.number sequence pattern clue, choose any three numbers, zero to nine, 

start middle, then low, then high (for the single digits) 

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